"What ended up happening is that everyone was so amazing and so wonderful leading up to all the surgeries," she said. "They were so supportive. And then I got my knee replacement. It was one hell of a recovery period and then it was dead quiet because everyone naturally was like Yay! You're healed."

But now, she hopes that taking accountability will eventually heal some of the damage she caused.

"I could only hope that the work that I've done will allow me back into those relationships," Finch reflected, "where I can say, 'Okay, I did this, I hurt a lot of people and I'm also going to work my f--king ass off because this is where I want to be and I know what it's like to lose everything.'" 

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